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Asia

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Fun Fact: I AM NOT STRAIGHT🌈Happy Pride 💗💛💙 from a very proud Pansexual💋

Happy pride month kids! Here to remind you that I’m not straight and I’d like to officially come out as non binary. My pronouns are she/they. Love you 😘😘😘

Dear July,

Thank you for clarity. Beyond that I really don’t have much to say. I wish had more to offer but truly the summer time kills my soul. I feel like shriveled up and I’m desperate for Autumn. The weather is beautiful and cruel. I hate the humidity and how it aggravates my asthma.
I got no writing done as I’ve been very distracted. That being said I have been spending my time wisely as of late. Yesterday I went on the loveliest date with the loveliest human 🥺🥺🥺 it’s always nice to connect with someone who has similar experiences and outlooks on life. Sometimes I feel very isolated in my views but yesterday I felt rooted and connected in a very deep way that I can’t really say I’ve felt this year.
One topic that we spoke about yesterday was the idea of love vs manipulation. I’ve decided that in order to truly love someone you cannot meet them in a place of manipulation. I want to love from a place of honesty. Which is going to require me to not use manipulation in any of my relationships platonic, romantic, and otherwise. I think we see love as a result of something rather than a true offering of the self. That probably made no sense but it’s okay I’m still stewing over my thoughts and feelings. Honesty is so important to me and I’m so tired of the ways in which society has conditioned us to be okay with lies and manipulation all at the idea of love, romance, and friendship.
August has always been transitionary for me so I expect nothing less. Allowing myself to move through this time judgement free is all I’m going to ask of me. I hope to come out on the other side as a reformulation of all the good bits I enjoy and am proud of about me. I want to evolve from the now.
I hope August is kind to you. And that you allow honesty and your truth to be the thing that solidifies you. I feel tiredness in waves and sometimes I can’t swim. But I hope that you chose, as I have, to float through those moments with ease. Sending my love.

Always,

Asia

Dear June,

Thank you for being a hot mess. I spent a lot of time reflecting and having realizations. That being said I’ve made a ton of progress. I’m tapering off my meds and my PTSD is a lot but I’m handling it. Nutritional therapy has been intense but I’m happy to report most days I eat 2 times a day. That’s still not where I want to be but my goal the next coming weeks is to start eating lunch. Which sounds silly but y’all I was literally eating maybe once a day. And that’s a hard maybe. I have an ongoing list of foods that feel safe and foods that don’t. I also got my ARFID diagnosis which made a lot of sense to me. Sometimes having a name for things makes them easier to work through. It was so nice spending some time with @kizzi.e and @xxanna7xx . Both so lovely! Very behind on writing and crafting but I needed a break. I rested a lot this month. Didn’t work as many hours or feel like I needed to constantly shine. All the baby geese are grown up and it makes me so happy. There was a lot of noise this month. But I’m happy to say on the first day of July it’s so quiet and peaceful. I’m extremely grateful for everything I went through. The universe got hands but so do I 😉 hope this month brings you peace. It’s hot so stay hydrated and carry Narcan! Love y’all 😘😘😘

Always,

Asia

The lights are on but no one’s home 🏡

It had to happen exactly that way 🥹

Let’s stay forever and a day 🥰

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